The past couple of weeks have been difficult for me. Two weeks ago something happened school related that really made me feel defeated. I'm not going to go into it a lot on here, but let's just say that it didn't leave me with a lot of self confidence in my abilities as a teacher. I really felt like someone had lost their confidence in my ability to do my job.
Tonight has also been difficult, because I've been thinking of that fact that I don't get to see any of my family for thanksgiving. Holidays can be a difficult time for me because my family is so far away. I know that I have been blessed with so much and that I get to see my family at Christmas, but it's hard to remember that when I see peoples' statuses/comments on Facebook about seeing family. Thankfully I was invited somewhere for Thanksgiving. It would have been much, much harder had I not been invited anywhere (like I was my first Easter here).
Tonight as I was watching a "Biggest Loser" special, I kept telling myself that I need start working out again! I cannot let myself keep going down this road. I've gained weight since the school year started and I need to reverse that. I guess you could say that I was having a "pity party" for myself. I was thinking about all the things I'm struggling with-my weight, never having been kissed or in a relationship, being away from family, still being lonely, school stuff, needing a new car (but not being able to afford one), low self-esteem.
Thankfully I have a counseling appointment on Monday. I guess I'll have a lot to tell her.
I do know that I have SO MUCH to be thankful for this Thanksgiving!!! God has blessed me with so many wonderful things!!! I just need to remember that!!!!!!
I hope that everyone has a wonderful and blessed Thanksgiving!!