summer so far

It's been a while since I've posted anything on here.  It's been a while since I've even logged on and read some other blogs.  I guess it just haven't "felt" like it the last few months.  Don't ask me why.  These past few days I've been thinking about the blogging world and decided that I want to start being a part of it again.

Here are some things that have been going on in my life lately:

The school year ended and I'm now preparing for the next one.  We start 3 weeks from today.  I have a lot to do in that amount of time.  Things are going to be changing for me a little this year.  I'm going to be teaching some different subjects (more social studies classes).  I'm excited, because I love social studies, but it is going to take some extra planning at first.

My summer has gone by fast.  I went "home" for a couple of weeks near the end of June and beginning of July.  I spent time with my family.  It was good to see my parents and spend some time with them.  My mom and I got along pretty well while I was there.  We only got into a heated "talk" a time or two, which is better than other times.  I was awesome to see my brother, sister-in-law, niece, and nephew.  The kiddos are growing so much and are as adorable as ever!!  I just absolutely love them and wish that I could see them more often.  The week that they were at my parents house we kept plenty busy, including spending time with the extended families.  It was great!

The day after I returned down south, a friend from college came to visit.  It was so great to spend some quality time with her.  She decided that she wanted to help me clean my bedroom (since it was a major mess when she got here).  She helped me do that and some other organizing/cleaning in my apartment.  I've also started doing some more decorating.  I've still got some stuff to finish up that we started while she was here.

This friend and I are working together to loss weight (she doesn't have as much to lose, since she's been on weight watchers for a few years).  Every day we email each other what we ate that day and if we exercised any.  We have been doing that for two weeks and in that two weeks I've lost about 2.5 pounds.  I've been trying to workout pretty much everyday.  In the last week and a half, I've went on a walk 9 times.  At least 7 of these times I've walked for one hour (or more).  I'm just hoping that I can keep up the working out once school starts.  It's going to be tricky, since I won't have as much time in the morning to walk outside due to having to be at school on time.  I think I'll have to start using my workout videos again.  My short-term goal is to be down 7 lb more by labor day (that would be about 9 pounds total).

The rest of the summer I've been trying to relax and filling in some at summer camp at school.  It's been nice to earn some extra money.  Plus, if I have stuff to do occasionally, then I plan and manage my time better.  I've spent some time with friends here, but not a ton.  One friend has been gone one business part of the summer.  The other friend has been going through a lot, so she's been traveling to see family and spending lots of time with her husband.  At times, it's been hard and I have felt left-out.  I know that this is just an emotional response.  Logically and rationally I know that she's going through a lot (I talked with my counselor about this a lot at my last appointment).

Okay, it is time to email my friend what I ate today and then head to bed (read my book first, then sleep).  I hope to come back again soon!  Take care and God bless everyone!!
-Single Lutheran

It's hard

It's hard exactly put into words how I've been feeling lately.  It seems like a lot of thoughts have been going through my head since the last time I wrote anything on here.  I can remember thinking in the past few weeks "I should write something in my blog about this" but never actually getting around to it.  I don't particularly like when that happens.  Sometimes I think that happens with my therapy appointments.  I think of stuff I could talk about in-between appointments, but then I can't always remember them when I actually go to the appointment.  I'm just going to start somewhere and see here it takes me.

School-It has been kind of busy and crazy.  A lot is going to be happening between now and the end of the school year.  We've been back in school a week since spring break and it was a exhausting week just trying to get back into the swing of things.  This following week is going to be busy too.  I've just got tons of stuff going on.

Spring Break-I didn't go anywhere for break.  I just stayed here and tried to get some work done.  I did get some time to relax and work on some extra school-related stuff.  I didn't get everything done that I wanted to (like my taxes, which I finally did on Thursday instead).  It was kind of a lonely week because my two closest friends here were both gone (one was visiting family, the other was on a business trip).  That made parts of my break very hard.  I just didn't have a chance to really do anything socially.  I just wish that I could reach out more to others, or that they would reach out to me more.  I wish that I would have had enough money to go visit my brother and his family.  Then I could have spent lots of time with my niece and nephew.  I guess I'll just have to settle for seeing them this summer when I go visit my parents.  At this point I don't think I'll be able to make a separate trip to New Mexico to visit them. 

Friends-Do you ever feel like your best friends don't want to spend time with you?  It seems like lately I've been feeling that way.  It seems like my best friend down here and I don't do much together anymore.  There are times when I would like to do something together, but so often she has other plans.  I've been feeling like she's willing to take the time to make plans with other people but not with me.  I know I can't expect to be able to do something with her all the time, it just seems like the amount of time we are able to spend together gets less and less.  Another friend (one from college) is hopefully going to be moving closer to me this summer (only 4 1/2 hours away instead of 7).  I'm hoping that this means we'll be able to see each other a bit more.  I'm hoping that she'll come and visit me sometime, since she's only been here to see me once in the 3 years I've lived here (and that was for only about 12 hours).  I do get frustrated though because she does take trips to other places and even mentioned something about going to visit a friend out in South Carolina this summer (which is probably at least 3 times farther than coming to visit me).  I just feel like people don't see me as someone they really want to spend time with.  I don't feel like I'm on their "priority" list.  Thats a hard thing to deal with, when I so badly want to know that people care about me.